IN LOCO PARENTIS
I was born with a long
term plan for the road
to the sea and then it went to the rain again
I am leaving to see my
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wow you’re so resilient I mean you know what
you want and you know what
you want and you
know how to make you happy
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wind seething, sliding leaves
along paved path teething
what?
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to the road to the rain it went
down the night again I am nothing to say
and then I was just like a little dog and I didn’t
want you that way
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I was born in a long flight over the sea and
then rained back
hapless pavement
I am to see my mother now
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people like you you know what is happening—
you know what you want and what you want and you know—
how to make you happy?
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little armadillo lullaby
guarded tongue
learned no body likes to know
what really happened
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I was born to be
here for the last flighting
night of a joy—
I am leaving now to see if you’ll halve me
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I was born in the sea for a while
be wet said the happy teething song
said I could look like her
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oh—
a thicket
you must feel
the way it touches you
is lonely
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I wanted you to notice
the way I’d changed, the way I’d, how I didn’t turn
my head
when you spoke
the corner of me
still leafing
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a little seethe
never hurt no leaves blown back from tomorrow
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and then I was just telling her about what it would be
like to be
in the same place as I
am turning
into this version of her, this morning
no more nights splattered indigo wanting—
so I’ll let go of a little something more difficult than
you
said let’s celebrate
stars still cuddling my memory
like fattened ticks I tweeze
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I woke in the sea no one
was coming
it felt like a migraine I mean
migration
I mean
I kissed the thought of you
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like oh honey
milk-thicket
ticking
I felt you move
tongue-kick against the roof of
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and you don’t want and you know what
I don’t want
to remember this
either or
I am not remembering at all
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to the sea to the sea you said that night we could flight the road
teasing my tall, my tips-of-toes
the stars were suffering
us a little happiness
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I was born in a long wind
a drawer half-
open to nothing
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washing myself
on the road to the sea
this was always the plan
I was always
longing to see my mother chasing
her shadow through the
shadows
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you took off your
leaves whooshed through me
little starlit
paradigms
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went to the mouth of the sea
no plan no
body met me there
I danced with my
self on the sandspit
daring the waves to
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all this sea muck, all this
milk-thistle, thick stars
wet dog lapping at the corner of the
sky I woke singing
in the morning and you’re so you really know
how to leave you really know
how to leave me in limb
o—I still feel your
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dream of me